Una sa lahat, tinamad akong mag-aral para sa Finals Week. Paano naman kasi, nasa vacation mode na ako tapos biglang magkakaroon ng Finals? Wala akong ginawa ngayong Holy Week kundi makipaglaro sa aking mga pinsan. Medyo sumagot lang naman ako ng problems galing sa sample test na ibinigay ni Sir Durwin Santos. Naku. Kumusta kaya ang magiging grade ko lalo na sa math at chem? Bahala na.
Ngayong Holy Week, nagkaroon na rin ako ng time para pag-isipang mabuti kung kumusta na ang lagay ng relasyon ko sa iba't ibang taong mahal ko. Napag-alaman kong hindi ko na nga talaga naaalagaan ang mga ito. Naramdaman ko ngayong bakasyon na sobrang namiss ako ng pamilya ko, lalo na si papa. Okay. Tanggap ko na na meron na siyang anak. Namiss din ako ng mga pinsan ko sapagkat sobrang saya nila nung dumating ako at gusto na agad makipaglaro sa akin. Gusto na nga rin tumabi sa akin sa pagtulog samantalang noon ay ayaw akong tabihan. Namiss din ako ng mga ibang kaibigan ko sa high school. Kahit magkakalayo kami, hindi nila ako nakalimutan at sabik silang makipagkita at makipagtelebabad sa akin. Well, hindi pala lahat. Masakit lang para sa akin na ayaw nang makipagkita sa akin ng bestfriend ko. May sinabi naman siyang rason ngunit---ahh basta. Alam ko magkalayo kami sapagkat sa Baguio siya nag-aaral at sa Manila ako. Bihira mag-usap at sobrang busy pero kung gusto pa rin naming maging magbestfriend may paraan, kung ayaw eh di maraming dahilan. Ahh...tama na. Nasaktan na ako ng maraming beses. Oo. Yug naramdaman ko ay parang nakipag-break sa boyfriend. Sinabi kong siguro kasi hindi ko pa naman naranasang makipagbreak at siyempre ayokong masubukan makipagbreak.
Kay Karlo naman, okay lang naman. Siyempre kailangan laging sumunod sa parents niya kung kelan kami puwedeng lumabas. Parang ako nga yung lalaki eh kasi mas ako yung pinapayagang lumabas with him. Haha. Niloloko ko nga siya kasi parang siya tuloy ang gf ko. Nyek. Once lang kami lumabas this Holy Week, sa mall lang kami. Ayaw niya kasi pumunta ng beach eh niyayaya ko siya. Twice ako napaiyak ni Karlo sa isang araw ngayong Holy Week. Una, kanina habang kumakain kami ng ice cream sa mall, nagsulat siya ng isang poem for me, nakakatawa yung mejo first part...pero ewan kung bakit at napaiyak na lang ako sa last part. Siguro kasi ang galing niya magsulat, nagawa lang niya yung poem within 10 minutes or siguro dahil naiyak ako sa tawa or baka naman mahal ko lang talaga siya kaya ako napaiyak? Ha. Ang labo ko. Gusto niyo ba mabasa yung poem na ginawa niya? Haha. Sige, share ko:
Summer oh it's so hot,
Like we're inside a boiling pot.
But with you, the heat I can bear.
Especially if I tossle your hair.
Eating ice cream and pizza with you,
What a joy to do.
Even if I am holding the umbrella,
It's okay, you are my little Cinderella.
I love it when we went to church together,
And you said I resemble my sister and mother.
I don't want to go to the beach today,
Maybe some other day?
I love you so much Justine,
To smell your hair with the scent of Pantene.
I miss you so much my wife,
You are the cream of my life..
Haha. Oh yun. Yung next na napaiyak niya ako dahil nakita ko yung scrapbook na gawa niya. It's not for me. He made it for a project. And naiyak na naman ako. Oo na. Iyakin ako. Para sa mga taong kilala talaga ako, alam na nila yun. Bakit ako naiyak? Uhm, may mga narealize lang kasi ako habang tinitignan ko yung scrapbook niya.
Anyway, masaya rin ako ngayong Holy Week kasi nakakain na rin ako ng masarap na luto ni tita at atsi Cion. Yay. Sa wakas, hindi na food from KFC, Mcdo, Shakey's o kahit ano pang kainan sa Katipunan. Nakakain na ako ng gulay at bangus. Yay. Ang sarap kaya ng bangus dito[Bonuan/Dagupan]. Namiss ko yun nang sobra.
Hayy, oh yun lang. Ang dami ko nang sinabi. Balik pa ako Manila bukas at may exam pa ako sa Monday at Tuesday. Rawr. Bahala na. Mamimiss ko buhay ko rito. Ano ba yan.. Magsesecond year na ko, hindi pa ako sanay sa buhay dorm at buhay sa univ.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Seventeen Years And Six Months Down, Six More Months To Go
Okay. I am only six months away from being an adult! Whopee! I used to hate birthdays because it reminds me of all my responsibilities as I grow older. And yeah! I used to hate growing up. It only means I am not that little girl anymore who may not care a thing in the world she's living in. Maybe now you're asking why I am excited on my birthday. Well, it is because I can sense more freedom from everything though I know that a lot of responsibilities come with it, too. I will be able to make decisions on my own most of the time. Though I will be more independent, I know that I still can not live on my own. I still have to depend on my family, especially my papa, to support me. So, somehow, I am like---in between. Sure, my age will be just right for an adult but I might still think and act like a sixteen-year-old teenage girl. So, if I want to have the best life on my 18th year on earth, I must not only grow old but also grow up.
Oh and yeah! Karlo and I will celebrate our anniversary at the same day as my birthday. <3
Oh and yeah! Karlo and I will celebrate our anniversary at the same day as my birthday. <3
Monday, December 31, 2007
An Appropriate Poem For The New Year
I got this from http://www.inspirationpeak.com/cgi-bin/poetry.cgi?record=10 .
These Are My Wishes For You
Sandra Sturtz Hauss
May you find serenity and tranquility in a world you may not always understand.
May the pain you have known and the conflict you have experienced give you the strength to walk through life facing each new situation with courage and optimism.
Always know that there are those whose love and understanding will always be there, even when you feel most alone.
May a kind word, a reassuring touch, and a warm smile be yours every day of your life, and may you give these gifts as well as receive them.
May the teachings of those you admire become part of you, so that you may call upon them.
Remember, those whose lives you have touched and who have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. It is the content of the encounter that is more important than its form.
May you not become too concerned with material matters, but instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart. Find time in each day to see beauty and love in the world around you.
Realize that what you feel you lack in one regard you may be more than compensated for in another. What you feel you lack in the present may become one of your strengths in the future. May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility. Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience.
May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself, and not be dependent on another's judgment of your accomplishments.
May you always feel loved.
These Are My Wishes For You
Sandra Sturtz Hauss
May you find serenity and tranquility in a world you may not always understand.
May the pain you have known and the conflict you have experienced give you the strength to walk through life facing each new situation with courage and optimism.
Always know that there are those whose love and understanding will always be there, even when you feel most alone.
May a kind word, a reassuring touch, and a warm smile be yours every day of your life, and may you give these gifts as well as receive them.
May the teachings of those you admire become part of you, so that you may call upon them.
Remember, those whose lives you have touched and who have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. It is the content of the encounter that is more important than its form.
May you not become too concerned with material matters, but instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart. Find time in each day to see beauty and love in the world around you.
Realize that what you feel you lack in one regard you may be more than compensated for in another. What you feel you lack in the present may become one of your strengths in the future. May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility. Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience.
May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself, and not be dependent on another's judgment of your accomplishments.
May you always feel loved.
Goodbyes
This is the day that will end the year 2007. This year will finally say goodbye but where shall it go? Does a year die and journey to a next life just like humans? Or does it just stay in our memories forever? This year has been a year of goodbyes for me.
This is the year I said goodbye to my high school life. I graduated from high school last March.
This is the year I said goodbye to the high school friends, classmates, and batchmates I shared my happiness and sadness with.
This is the year I said goodbye to my high school teachers who imparted a lot of knowledge and wisdom I needed to survive life.
This is the year I said goodbye to my alma mater where I spent 9 years of my life.
This is the year I said goodbye to my family as I leave for Katipunan to study in college.
This is the year I said goodbye to Dagupan and Calasiao where I grew up.
This is the year I said goodbye to curfews, household chores, and parental supervision. (haha. Well, not really.)
This is the year I said goodbye to singlehood and finally gave my heart to a "fried chicken".
With all these goodbyes came all the hellos, too!
This is the year I said hello to my college life.
This is the year I said hello to new friends in college where some of them already hold a special place in my heart. I won't mention their names because they already know who they are. =D
This is the year I said hello to new professors who will make my college experience hard but fruitful in the end.
This is the year I said hello to my new school and new home (hopefully) for the next four years.
This is the year I said hello to my roommates and orgmates whom I consider as my new family.
This is the year I said hello to my dorm where I will live while studying in the Ateneo.
This is the year I said hello to more freedom and less parental supervision. (haha. But then again, not really.)
This is the year I said hello to a relationship that I pray will last for a lifetime if not forever.
This is the year I said goodbye to my high school life. I graduated from high school last March.
This is the year I said goodbye to the high school friends, classmates, and batchmates I shared my happiness and sadness with.
This is the year I said goodbye to my high school teachers who imparted a lot of knowledge and wisdom I needed to survive life.
This is the year I said goodbye to my alma mater where I spent 9 years of my life.
This is the year I said goodbye to my family as I leave for Katipunan to study in college.
This is the year I said goodbye to Dagupan and Calasiao where I grew up.
This is the year I said goodbye to curfews, household chores, and parental supervision. (haha. Well, not really.)
This is the year I said goodbye to singlehood and finally gave my heart to a "fried chicken".
With all these goodbyes came all the hellos, too!
This is the year I said hello to my college life.
This is the year I said hello to new friends in college where some of them already hold a special place in my heart. I won't mention their names because they already know who they are. =D
This is the year I said hello to new professors who will make my college experience hard but fruitful in the end.
This is the year I said hello to my new school and new home (hopefully) for the next four years.
This is the year I said hello to my roommates and orgmates whom I consider as my new family.
This is the year I said hello to my dorm where I will live while studying in the Ateneo.
This is the year I said hello to more freedom and less parental supervision. (haha. But then again, not really.)
This is the year I said hello to a relationship that I pray will last for a lifetime if not forever.
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I spent this last day of the year with my Karlo. I'll miss him so much. He will go back to Baguio this January 2 because their classes will resume the next day. This christmas break, we almost saw each other every other day. We went out last December 24, 26, 28 and 31. I so much miss him. *sigh*
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Geez, classes start on January 7. Argh! Back to school, back to hell! Goodbye comfy outfits and hello dress code!
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Blessings I received this year:
January - I passed almost all the college entrance tests I took except for UP.
February - He tied my shoelaces. haha.
He danced with me in our last prom.
March - I graduated from high school (is that really a blessing?)
I received the "perfect attendance" award during graduation. haha.
April - We became closer friends even if he already knew about it.
Precious moments were spent with my high school classmates and
friends.
May - Just like in April.
I started to meet potential friends through the net and some of them
became my blockmates!
June - My college life started. (Is this really considered a blessing? Oh well!)
July - I celebrated my 17th birthday and I gave my heart to Karlo (cheesy?mushy? corny? Who cares? =P haha)
Anna and I went to Baguio
August - I love chocolates! M&Ms, kisses, toblerones, twix, cadbury...
September - Hmm, can't think of something.
October - My first sembreak! Yay!
November - Hmm, I can't also think of something.
December - My first christmas as a college student and with my Karlo.
Unfortunately, this is the first christmas I didn't feel the christmas
spirit at all.
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Have a super happy new year. I hope that 2008 has a lot of good surprises in store for all of us! Enjoy the last day of 2007 and the first day of 2008! Start the year with a prayer! God bless us all!
Thursday, December 27, 2007
I Am Super Sad
...why can't chocolates or choco oreo donuts make me happy?
...why did Baguio seem different today?
...why can't I just forget about that girl who wants to steal my Karlo?
...why do I have to go back to Manila?
...why does this holiday season has to end?
...why am I still not used to college life?
...please take me back to high school!
...why can't I have super high grades?
...or why am I just not contented with the passing or so-so grades?
...why am I missing you so much?
...please tell me something comforting!
...why didn't I feel the Christmas spirit this year?
...why does this Christmas break has to end soooo soon?
...why can't I just live my life the way I want it to?
...why can't time just fly so fast and make me graduate already!
...I hate EMOs!
...but why do I feel like one?
...at one point in my life, I wanted this so therefore I do not have the right to complain in the first place!
...stupid me!
...I just want to shout at you "R"rrrr!
...just PLEASE! get lost!
...can someone just please cheer me up?
...it will be my hell week when I get back to the university.
...I'm gonna miss my blockmate, Michi. [take care!]
...happy birthday, dear papa! i love you!
...I'm not that li'l girl who used to be problem-free!
...I will turn 18 in about seven months.
...oh! how wish to go back to my childhood days and just think about dolls and cotton candies!
...life was sweeter back then.
...my life is really complicated right now.
...I don't even know why I'm taking up this course.
...not knowing where to end up in the future.
...kept on telling myself, "I can find a job anywhere." 'coz that's what the upperclassmen and alumni told me.
...it is a minute before nine o'clock in the evening.
...bonsoir!
...why did Baguio seem different today?
...why can't I just forget about that girl who wants to steal my Karlo?
...why do I have to go back to Manila?
...why does this holiday season has to end?
...why am I still not used to college life?
...please take me back to high school!
...why can't I have super high grades?
...or why am I just not contented with the passing or so-so grades?
...why am I missing you so much?
...please tell me something comforting!
...why didn't I feel the Christmas spirit this year?
...why does this Christmas break has to end soooo soon?
...why can't I just live my life the way I want it to?
...why can't time just fly so fast and make me graduate already!
...I hate EMOs!
...but why do I feel like one?
...at one point in my life, I wanted this so therefore I do not have the right to complain in the first place!
...stupid me!
...I just want to shout at you "R"rrrr!
...just PLEASE! get lost!
...can someone just please cheer me up?
...it will be my hell week when I get back to the university.
...I'm gonna miss my blockmate, Michi. [take care!]
...happy birthday, dear papa! i love you!
...I'm not that li'l girl who used to be problem-free!
...I will turn 18 in about seven months.
...oh! how wish to go back to my childhood days and just think about dolls and cotton candies!
...life was sweeter back then.
...my life is really complicated right now.
...I don't even know why I'm taking up this course.
...not knowing where to end up in the future.
...kept on telling myself, "I can find a job anywhere." 'coz that's what the upperclassmen and alumni told me.
...it is a minute before nine o'clock in the evening.
...bonsoir!
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
My Christmas Blog Entry
It has been exactly a month since I last made an entry for my blog. Well, I had been so busy with school work and this is the only free time I have. Yesterday, Karlo fetch me at our house and brought me to their house together with Vinizza, Gabby, and Sev. We ate our lunch there. I also met one of Karlo's blockmates. Hmm, as always time flies soooo fast whenever I'm with him. Parang lagi na lang bitin. It's like I just started hanging out with him then it's time to go back home again. Hayy, long distance relationship is really hard. Parang ayoko na nga umuwi kahapon, tapos nagcomment si Sev...sabi niya "Ano ba yan! Parang adik ka na sa kanya!" I just igonred it. I mean, we don't always get to see each other. Kaya when I get the chance to spend time with him, sinusulit ko talaga. I do not think that is considered being addicted to a person. An example that I could think of when you say "adik sa isang tao" is when everyday na nga kayo magkasama, every day pa kayo magkatext and parang one minute lang kayo hindi magkita, nababaliw ka na. That, for me, is being addicted to a person.
So at around three in the afternoon, Karlo brought me back to our house. My tita, tito, cousins and I went to Quesban to celebrate our christmas there. My tita, tito and I also visited lolo Hilario, my tito's lolo, in the hospital. Even if lolo Hilario is not related to me, I cried when I saw him. He was really weak and he can't celebrate Christmas in their home even if he wanted to.
Anyway, I hope that all of you had a wonderful Christmas this year. =D
So at around three in the afternoon, Karlo brought me back to our house. My tita, tito, cousins and I went to Quesban to celebrate our christmas there. My tita, tito and I also visited lolo Hilario, my tito's lolo, in the hospital. Even if lolo Hilario is not related to me, I cried when I saw him. He was really weak and he can't celebrate Christmas in their home even if he wanted to.
Anyway, I hope that all of you had a wonderful Christmas this year. =D
Sunday, November 25, 2007
A Happily Ever After
For the past week, Karlo and I have not been in good terms. Admittedly, we often fight over small things. I guess it is a normal thing for couples but I am so tired of crying. I am so tired of all the pain which are brought by these frequent quarrels. Though we immediately fix things between us, everything still seems wrong. All of these made me come to the point of thinking about leaving him. Depression has somewhat become my bestfriend for the past week. Nothing---not even chocolate bars or choco oreo donuts can make me happy. I have become so depressed that I disregarded the thought of a "happily-ever-after", thinking that it is just some silly thing Walt Disney came up with---until...
Grace, Anna and I watched the movie Enchanted. It was because of the movie which reminded me of all the beautiful things love has to offer. Though love offers joy, it also comes with pain and hurtful moments at times. It's a package deal, y'know! Love = joy + pain. You can not fall in love and only feel joy and happiness and throw pain in the trash bin. Sorry but love does not work that way. Anyway, it is about a princess [well, not actually] named Giselle who is somewhat teleported to New York. She met Robert who took care of her. Giselle's supposedly prince charming followed her to New York to bring her back to Andalasia [where they came from] and marry her. Prince Charming's mother, the witch, ruined everything when she herself followed them to New York. Robert, a man from the real world, who does not believes in happily-ever-afters and other fairy tale stuff, fell in love with Giselle while Robert's ex-fiancee married Prince Charming in Andalasia. In the end, everyone lived happily ever after.
A lot of the scenes and quotes/lines from the movie made me think about my relationship with Karlo. I know that I had taken him for granted so maaaany times and I feel so guilty about it. I now realized how important Karlo is to me. I know that he loves me so much but I often ignore his feelings. If I want to have a "happily-ever-after", it is all up to me and Karlo [us] to make it happen. Karlo may have done something wrong but I have my own shortcomings, too! I guess it is unfair if I just constantly blame everything to him. So now, I would like to say sorry for everything I have done to you, Karlo. I know I have caused you pain and made you cry for the past week and I really, really regret it. I love you so much. I don't know if you believe me but I do still love you. I hope we will have our own happily ever after in the end. [emo ba?sorry.]
Anyway, this is the lyrics of the song "That's How You Know" by Amy Adams. This song is my favorite song from the movie along with all the other songs included in the movie's soundtrack. Watch Enchanted and I promise no one will get disappointed. Enchanted is now one of my favorite movies.
Lyrics of the song:
Giselle: How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?
Man: How does she know that you love her?
Giselle:How do you show her you love her?
Both: How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
Giselle:It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)
Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...
Man: You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her
Giselle:Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)
Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!
All:He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know That's how you know!
Giselle:He's your love He's your love...
That's how you know (la la la la la la la la)
He loves you (la la la la la la la la)
That's how you know (la la la la la la la la)
t's true(la la la la la)
Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!
All:His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know!
Giselle:He's your love...
Man: That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her
Giselle:That's how you know...That's how you know... He's your love...
Grace, Anna and I watched the movie Enchanted. It was because of the movie which reminded me of all the beautiful things love has to offer. Though love offers joy, it also comes with pain and hurtful moments at times. It's a package deal, y'know! Love = joy + pain. You can not fall in love and only feel joy and happiness and throw pain in the trash bin. Sorry but love does not work that way. Anyway, it is about a princess [well, not actually] named Giselle who is somewhat teleported to New York. She met Robert who took care of her. Giselle's supposedly prince charming followed her to New York to bring her back to Andalasia [where they came from] and marry her. Prince Charming's mother, the witch, ruined everything when she herself followed them to New York. Robert, a man from the real world, who does not believes in happily-ever-afters and other fairy tale stuff, fell in love with Giselle while Robert's ex-fiancee married Prince Charming in Andalasia. In the end, everyone lived happily ever after.
A lot of the scenes and quotes/lines from the movie made me think about my relationship with Karlo. I know that I had taken him for granted so maaaany times and I feel so guilty about it. I now realized how important Karlo is to me. I know that he loves me so much but I often ignore his feelings. If I want to have a "happily-ever-after", it is all up to me and Karlo [us] to make it happen. Karlo may have done something wrong but I have my own shortcomings, too! I guess it is unfair if I just constantly blame everything to him. So now, I would like to say sorry for everything I have done to you, Karlo. I know I have caused you pain and made you cry for the past week and I really, really regret it. I love you so much. I don't know if you believe me but I do still love you. I hope we will have our own happily ever after in the end. [emo ba?sorry.]
Anyway, this is the lyrics of the song "That's How You Know" by Amy Adams. This song is my favorite song from the movie along with all the other songs included in the movie's soundtrack. Watch Enchanted and I promise no one will get disappointed. Enchanted is now one of my favorite movies.
Lyrics of the song:
Giselle: How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?
Man: How does she know that you love her?
Giselle:How do you show her you love her?
Both: How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
Giselle:It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)
Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...
Man: You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her
Giselle:Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)
Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!
All:He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know That's how you know!
Giselle:He's your love He's your love...
That's how you know (la la la la la la la la)
He loves you (la la la la la la la la)
That's how you know (la la la la la la la la)
t's true(la la la la la)
Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!
All:His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know (That's how you know)
That's how you know!
Giselle:He's your love...
Man: That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her
Giselle:That's how you know...That's how you know... He's your love...
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Firsts?
Last November 2, my KFC and I went out for the last time before going back to our old lives. That was the first time we spent our monthsary together, the first time we ate lunch in a place more special than Mcdo, the first time he gave me a letter and a lot more. He gave me letters before but this time it's different because he used a colored pen and paper. He usually just e-mails me his letters. This is the greatest gift that Kaloi gave me so far. I love it because this is the first creative gift of Kaloi. He presented the letter in a creative way and he called it the "bomb". I really miss him. As much as I want to share every detail that happened that day, I decided not to. All I can say is... I really had fun. I just love him so much. =D
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Uhm----Iyakan Na?
klanglahigfoangbml vbasokhtioyrtionsvlk dnsklzngoaiushgioasnmglkasngoashetuhnwklgv sadklfjaowie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ayoko na! Ayoko na! Hindi ko kilala sarili ko! Hindi ko na kilala mga tao sa paligid ko. I just want to breakdown na lang at umiyak. Akala ko ba masaya ang sembreak? Bakit tumutulo luha ko? Panahon na naman ng pag-iyak. Tuwing sembreak na nga lang kami magkikita, halos hindi pa payagan lumabas. Hindi na naman kami pasaway ah. Alam naman nila lahat ng ginagawa namin pero bakit wala pa rin yung full trust?
Oo na! Ugaw-ugaw nga ako eh. Ang kulit kulit ko. Isip-bata, ganyan! Ang sad. Love mo nga ko diba? Ewan. I'm sorry for not acting like I should be. I am aware that I do not act like a seventeen-year-old person. I don't know. I'm stupid siguro.
Hays, I just want to be with you. Sorry ha? Ang hirap kasi. Gusto lang naman kita makita at makasama kapag pareho tayong nasa Dagupan. Super layo ko kasi. Super bihira ka pang makasama. Hindi ko kasi alam gagawin ko. Loneliness. Ewan ko. Mahirap pero gusto ko. Gusto ko kasi love kita. Mas lalo ako nagmumukhang makulit [at sabik na makita ka?] dahil lagi kita pinipilit na lumabas. Sorry pero yun na nga lang nagpapasaya sa akin eh.
Wala naman kasing nakakaintindi sa sitwasyon ko. Ayoko magreklamo pero parang ganun na nga nangyayari. Ayoko magreklamo kasi it's my choice rin naman na mag-aral sa admu na super layo sa pamilya, mga kaibigan at sa iyo. Kaya kapag nahohomesick ako, bakit ako magrereklamo? Kapag may sakit ako at walang mag-aalaga sa akin, bakit ako magrereklamo? Kapag malungkot ako at walang magpapasaya sa akin, bakit ako magrereklamo? Kapag namimiss kita at gustong makasama ngunit hindi maaari, bakit ako magrereklamo? Choice ko nga ito eh. Pero hindi ko naman maitago yung kalungkutan ko. Marami akong gustong gawin pero hindi naman pwede. Posible pero hindi pwede.
Ayoko na ngang mangulit. Andami kong gusto sabihin pero huwag na lang. Baka may masabi pa akong mali at pagsisihan ko din sa huli. Ang eng*t-eng*t ko talaga. Err! Naiinis na ko sa sarili ko. Ayoko na! Ang hirap iexplain ng nararamdaman ko ngayon. Ang hirap iexplain kung sino ako ngayon at kung bakit ako ganito. At bakit ko nga ba ieexplain? Wala rin namang may pakialam. Sh*t! Ang komplikado ng buhay. Walang nakakaintindi at walang nakakatulong sa akin. Wala----kahit isa-----Wala------kahit isa man lang sa mga taong mahal ko------wala-----wala sa pamilya ko-----------wala-----wala sa mga kaibigan ko-----wala----pati yata ikaw----wala-----pati sarili ko.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ayoko na! Ayoko na! Hindi ko kilala sarili ko! Hindi ko na kilala mga tao sa paligid ko. I just want to breakdown na lang at umiyak. Akala ko ba masaya ang sembreak? Bakit tumutulo luha ko? Panahon na naman ng pag-iyak. Tuwing sembreak na nga lang kami magkikita, halos hindi pa payagan lumabas. Hindi na naman kami pasaway ah. Alam naman nila lahat ng ginagawa namin pero bakit wala pa rin yung full trust?
Oo na! Ugaw-ugaw nga ako eh. Ang kulit kulit ko. Isip-bata, ganyan! Ang sad. Love mo nga ko diba? Ewan. I'm sorry for not acting like I should be. I am aware that I do not act like a seventeen-year-old person. I don't know. I'm stupid siguro.
Hays, I just want to be with you. Sorry ha? Ang hirap kasi. Gusto lang naman kita makita at makasama kapag pareho tayong nasa Dagupan. Super layo ko kasi. Super bihira ka pang makasama. Hindi ko kasi alam gagawin ko. Loneliness. Ewan ko. Mahirap pero gusto ko. Gusto ko kasi love kita. Mas lalo ako nagmumukhang makulit [at sabik na makita ka?] dahil lagi kita pinipilit na lumabas. Sorry pero yun na nga lang nagpapasaya sa akin eh.
Wala naman kasing nakakaintindi sa sitwasyon ko. Ayoko magreklamo pero parang ganun na nga nangyayari. Ayoko magreklamo kasi it's my choice rin naman na mag-aral sa admu na super layo sa pamilya, mga kaibigan at sa iyo. Kaya kapag nahohomesick ako, bakit ako magrereklamo? Kapag may sakit ako at walang mag-aalaga sa akin, bakit ako magrereklamo? Kapag malungkot ako at walang magpapasaya sa akin, bakit ako magrereklamo? Kapag namimiss kita at gustong makasama ngunit hindi maaari, bakit ako magrereklamo? Choice ko nga ito eh. Pero hindi ko naman maitago yung kalungkutan ko. Marami akong gustong gawin pero hindi naman pwede. Posible pero hindi pwede.
Ayoko na ngang mangulit. Andami kong gusto sabihin pero huwag na lang. Baka may masabi pa akong mali at pagsisihan ko din sa huli. Ang eng*t-eng*t ko talaga. Err! Naiinis na ko sa sarili ko. Ayoko na! Ang hirap iexplain ng nararamdaman ko ngayon. Ang hirap iexplain kung sino ako ngayon at kung bakit ako ganito. At bakit ko nga ba ieexplain? Wala rin namang may pakialam. Sh*t! Ang komplikado ng buhay. Walang nakakaintindi at walang nakakatulong sa akin. Wala----kahit isa-----Wala------kahit isa man lang sa mga taong mahal ko------wala-----wala sa pamilya ko-----------wala-----wala sa mga kaibigan ko-----wala----pati yata ikaw----wala-----pati sarili ko.
Monday, October 22, 2007
What Happened To The 17-year-old Prune Juice?
October 12, 2007
My roomies [Chrissie and Grace] and I went to the Powerplant Mall and shopped. Well, I haven't bought anything from PM except for a chocolate crepe. It's sooo yummy! It was only Chrisse who shopped for clothes and shoes. After PM shopping, we went to Greenhills and guess what we did? Well, uhm----shopped again! Hahaha. This time I bought two blouses, a dress, a necklace with a japanese pendant, silver shoes, and food. Hahaha. Yeah! I love food. Good thing I was able to control myself not to buy a box of Krispy Kremes. We went home after shopping and eating dinner.
October 14, 2007
I went to the college chapel for the send-off mass for the retreatants. After the mass, we [ACLCers retreatants] waited for the bus to bring us to Baguio City. We had our retreat in Mirador Jesuit Villa.
October 15-19, 2007
Silent retreat. Magnum Silencium? No cellphones, no laptops, no iPods/mp3s, no talking, modesty of the eyes and monk walk. Waaaaaaah! I can't believe I survived the five-day retreat! I really wanted to give up because I don't think I can survive without communicating with other people but since God loves me so much......He made ways for me to stay. He gave us the chance to talk when the RD of the common points for wednesday lifted the silence during that time. God also made way to reach out to me when Greg and Kuya Jason gave me letters. At least, I was able to communicate with other people even in just a few minutes. That made me continue with my retreat. I realized that God really answers my prayers. All I have to do was to wait. On the last night of the retreat when the QMs broke the silence, no one slept. Hahaha. Everyone was talking and laughing the whole night. Hmm, we were just enjoying the freedom to talk again. Hahaha. Remember: we didn't talk for five days except for the few minutes of lifting the silence last wednesday.
October 20, 2007
I've been waiting for this day. During my five days in Baguio City, I was feeling sad because everytime I look at everything around me, it reminds me of the times I spent with Kaloi in Baguio City. Yeahp yeahp! The very first time we spent time together was in Baguio. I enjoyed every moment of that. Thanks to Anna Moreno and her family, thanks to Grace and thanks to Kaloi. Anyway, after breakfast I said goodbye to the ACLCers. They were really really kind and kept on asking me if I'll be okay on my own. Hmm, after saying goodbye to them, I went to the new Victory station and since I was too early, I just sat there while waiting for Kaloi and his family. I was really scared and nervous. I didn't know what to do and say when they arrived. I just smiled and said "Good morning po!". They smiled back and asked me how long have I been waiting for them and said maybe an hour but it's okay with me. His mom, dad and sister went to his dorm while Kaloi and I went to SLU to get his grades but SLU will release their grades pa pala on October 23. So, we went to SM na lang and ate lunch with his family. I wasn't talking much except when his family asked me questions. Eeeh! I was so shy and nervous eh. I really don't know what to say. After lunch, his family shopped while Kaloi and I just strolled sa SM. After magshop ng family niya, Kaloi and I went back to the new victory station to get my big bags and brought it to the old victory station. Tapos ayun, we went home na. Basta, I had fun! Thank you to his family and thank you na rin kay Kaloi. =D Thank you sa lunch, sa pamasahe, sa fruits and sa pagbuhat ng bags ko. Thank you might not be enough but really----I'm super super grateful for everything. I love my KFC. On our way home pala, Kaloi called me the 17-year-old prune juice kasi I smelled like prune juice daw! Hahaha! Ang loko talaga nun! Tapos I was wearing a violet-like jacket pa nun kaya sabi niya "Bagay talaga prune juice sayo! Nakaviolet jacket ka pa!" hahaha. Ang loko mo talaga! [kaloi]
My roomies [Chrissie and Grace] and I went to the Powerplant Mall and shopped. Well, I haven't bought anything from PM except for a chocolate crepe. It's sooo yummy! It was only Chrisse who shopped for clothes and shoes. After PM shopping, we went to Greenhills and guess what we did? Well, uhm----shopped again! Hahaha. This time I bought two blouses, a dress, a necklace with a japanese pendant, silver shoes, and food. Hahaha. Yeah! I love food. Good thing I was able to control myself not to buy a box of Krispy Kremes. We went home after shopping and eating dinner.
October 14, 2007
I went to the college chapel for the send-off mass for the retreatants. After the mass, we [ACLCers retreatants] waited for the bus to bring us to Baguio City. We had our retreat in Mirador Jesuit Villa.
October 15-19, 2007
Silent retreat. Magnum Silencium? No cellphones, no laptops, no iPods/mp3s, no talking, modesty of the eyes and monk walk. Waaaaaaah! I can't believe I survived the five-day retreat! I really wanted to give up because I don't think I can survive without communicating with other people but since God loves me so much......He made ways for me to stay. He gave us the chance to talk when the RD of the common points for wednesday lifted the silence during that time. God also made way to reach out to me when Greg and Kuya Jason gave me letters. At least, I was able to communicate with other people even in just a few minutes. That made me continue with my retreat. I realized that God really answers my prayers. All I have to do was to wait. On the last night of the retreat when the QMs broke the silence, no one slept. Hahaha. Everyone was talking and laughing the whole night. Hmm, we were just enjoying the freedom to talk again. Hahaha. Remember: we didn't talk for five days except for the few minutes of lifting the silence last wednesday.
October 20, 2007
I've been waiting for this day. During my five days in Baguio City, I was feeling sad because everytime I look at everything around me, it reminds me of the times I spent with Kaloi in Baguio City. Yeahp yeahp! The very first time we spent time together was in Baguio. I enjoyed every moment of that. Thanks to Anna Moreno and her family, thanks to Grace and thanks to Kaloi. Anyway, after breakfast I said goodbye to the ACLCers. They were really really kind and kept on asking me if I'll be okay on my own. Hmm, after saying goodbye to them, I went to the new Victory station and since I was too early, I just sat there while waiting for Kaloi and his family. I was really scared and nervous. I didn't know what to do and say when they arrived. I just smiled and said "Good morning po!". They smiled back and asked me how long have I been waiting for them and said maybe an hour but it's okay with me. His mom, dad and sister went to his dorm while Kaloi and I went to SLU to get his grades but SLU will release their grades pa pala on October 23. So, we went to SM na lang and ate lunch with his family. I wasn't talking much except when his family asked me questions. Eeeh! I was so shy and nervous eh. I really don't know what to say. After lunch, his family shopped while Kaloi and I just strolled sa SM. After magshop ng family niya, Kaloi and I went back to the new victory station to get my big bags and brought it to the old victory station. Tapos ayun, we went home na. Basta, I had fun! Thank you to his family and thank you na rin kay Kaloi. =D Thank you sa lunch, sa pamasahe, sa fruits and sa pagbuhat ng bags ko. Thank you might not be enough but really----I'm super super grateful for everything. I love my KFC. On our way home pala, Kaloi called me the 17-year-old prune juice kasi I smelled like prune juice daw! Hahaha! Ang loko talaga nun! Tapos I was wearing a violet-like jacket pa nun kaya sabi niya "Bagay talaga prune juice sayo! Nakaviolet jacket ka pa!" hahaha. Ang loko mo talaga! [kaloi]
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Random Things
Top ten things I did yesterday ( 13th of October, 2007):
10. woke up at noon
9. wrote a letter for Chrissie
8. watched HSM 1
7. went to the Ateneo with Grace to pass her physics project
6. met her physics prof
5. went to National bookstore, Cello's, and the supermarket
4. ordered Mongolian Rice Bowl at KFC for take-out
3. watched HSM 2
2. bid Grace goodbye and hugged Chrissie [I'm gonna miss you Chrissie! I hope you'll still be our roommate. Have fun in Connecticut and keep in touch.]
1. text my kisses
Top ten things/persons I miss:
10. my blockmates
9. school? [haha =P]
8. the mall/s
7. gonuts donuts
6. UAAP season
5. bangus city and puto town
4. baguio city
3. my roomies
2. my Kaloi and my HS friends/batchmates
1. my family
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10. woke up at noon
9. wrote a letter for Chrissie
8. watched HSM 1
7. went to the Ateneo with Grace to pass her physics project
6. met her physics prof
5. went to National bookstore, Cello's, and the supermarket
4. ordered Mongolian Rice Bowl at KFC for take-out
3. watched HSM 2
2. bid Grace goodbye and hugged Chrissie [I'm gonna miss you Chrissie! I hope you'll still be our roommate. Have fun in Connecticut and keep in touch.]
1. text my kisses
Top ten things/persons I miss:
10. my blockmates
9. school? [haha =P]
8. the mall/s
7. gonuts donuts
6. UAAP season
5. bangus city and puto town
4. baguio city
3. my roomies
2. my Kaloi and my HS friends/batchmates
1. my family
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Ooooh! I can't believe the first sem is over.
I just can't explain what I feel about my first sem in the Ateneo.
A lot of things happened in just four/five months.
I admit, it was hard keeping up with the demands of the university but with the help of my roommates I survived the first sem.
Of course, not only my roommates but a lot of people helped me during my first sem.
They are:
my family, Karlo, HS friends and batchmates, block R3, ACLCers and my profs.
Aside from them, God was there and will always be there for me.
I'm just feeling sad because I'm all alone now.
My roomies left me tonight except for Aimee who left last Friday.
I'm so gonna miss my three roomies!
They're simply the best!
Four different people from four different cities placed in one room to live with each other for a semester and turned out to be friends not only for this sem but for life.
Room 407:
Bed A: Aimee
Bed B: Jusz
Bed C: Grace
Bed D: Chrissie
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I soooo miss my Kaloi na!
I want to see him na.
Ooooh. Wala lang.
I miss my Zzy Che na rin. =D
I can't wait to give my gift for her.
I want to go home na!
Retreat.....uhm!
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Ooooh!
I got a B+ in my PE class [soccer].
I think that's my highest grade for the sem.
Too bad it can't pull my grades up because PE grade is not a part of the QPI's computation.
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I can't sleep but I must because I have to wake up early tomorrow.
.zsuj.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Isang Sulat Ng Magulang Para Sa Kanyang Anak
I found this somewhere in the internet and it really made me cry. =C
Let us learn to appreciate and be grateful to our parents and grandparents. Always love them and try to understand them even if we don't get along with them sometimes.
Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana ako at pagpasensyahan.
Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag kainan, huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan. Maramdamin ang isang matanda. Nagse-self-pity ako sa tuwing sisigawan mo ako.
Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi mo, huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan ng "binge!" paki-ulit na lang ang sinabi mo o pakisulat na lang. Pasensya ka na, anak. Matanda na talaga ako.
Kapag mahina na tuhod ko,pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo, katulad ng pag-aalalay ko sa iyo noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako kung ako man ay nagiging makulit at paulit ulit na parang sirang plaka. Basta pakinggan mo na lang ako. Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan o pagsasawaang pakinggan. Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa? kapag gusto mo ng lobo,paulit-ulit mo 'yong sasabihin,maghapon kang mangungulit hangga't hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo. Pinagtiyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.
Pagpasensyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy. Amoy matanda, amoy lupa. Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo. Mahina na ang katawan ko. Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan, huwag mo sana akong pandirihan. Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa? pinagtiyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalim ng kama kapag ayaw mong maligo.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas,ako'y masungit, dala na marahil ito ng katandaan.Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin.
Kapag may konti kang panahon,magkwentuhan naman tayo, kahit sandali lang. inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa. Walang kausap. Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho, subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabik na sabik na akong makakwentuhan ka, kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado sa mga kwento ko.Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa? Pinagtiyagaan kong pakinggan at intindihin ang pautal-utal mong kwento tungkol sa iyong teddy bear.
At kapag dumating ang sandali na ako'y magkakasakit at maratay sa banig ng karamdaman, huwag mo sana akong pagsawaan alagaan. Pagpasensyahan mo na sana kung ako man ay maihi o madumi sa higaan,pagtiyagaan mo sana akong alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay. Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.
Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw, hawakan mo sana ang aking kamay at bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin ang kamatayan.
At huwag kang mag-alala, kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha, ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagapalain ka sana ... dahil naging mapagmahal kasa iyong ama't ina...
Let us learn to appreciate and be grateful to our parents and grandparents. Always love them and try to understand them even if we don't get along with them sometimes.
Monday, September 10, 2007
WE definitely bleed BLUE
I have blue blood running through my veins.
After all the trials we've been through like going to school at 9 pm (thursday) to line up for the selling of tickets the next day but ended up getting a GA ticket and going to Araneta at 7 am at the day of the game itself to buy an upper box ticket----it is ALL worth it.
You could really feel the school spirit in the big dome.
The blue babble was just behind us and I felt like my heart and the drums beat as one.
I wasn't able to watch the first ateneo-lasalle game in araneta but it's okay.
The second game was just as fun as the first one.
The outcome of any admu-dlsu game is never predictable.
Chris is, without a doubt, TIUperman.
I felt really bad when the score was 38-51 but then we caught up soon enough.
I can't stop cheering out loud and jumping up and down because the game was so intense.
Almost no one in Araneta was sitting down during the game.
Almost everyone was wild and cheering for their own team.
The big dome is full of people wearing only blue or green.
Maybe only a hundred people wore a different color of shirt aside from blue/green.
I was super tired after the game but really happy.
Here are pics taken after the game:
One Big Fight!
Go ATENEO!
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Ang Sarap Maging Atenista
Bakit nga ba?
-dahil maraming freebies
-dahil ang mga atenista ay men and women for and with others
-dahil masarap kumain sa Manang's
-dahil may mga kaibigan akong gaya nila Grace, Anna, Aimee, Chrissie at marami pang iba
-dahil maganda ang campus
-dahil ang daming pwedeng kainan sa may Katipunan
-dahil maganda ang LRT station sa Katipunan
-dahil maraming cute at hotties sa blue school
-dahil cool si Dean Ang
-dahil ang daming walang pasok noong Agosto
-dahil kasali ako sa ACLC at mababait mga tao doon
Ngunit kahit masarap maging atenista, nahihirapan pa rin ako... at bakit kaya?
-dahil kahit anong aral ang gawin ko 1.86 lang ang aking QPI sa advisory mark
-dahil naka C lang ako sa Filipino at ES Lec at D naman sa ES Lab
-dahil bagsak ako sa PE practical exam
-dahil ang gastos tumira dito sa Katips
-dahil ang layo ko sa aming home sweet home
-dahil nasa Baguio ang aking kisses
-dahil hindi ko kasama ang aking Zzy
-dahil tumataba na ako
-dahil yung Easy A daw na natsci ay mahirap din pala
-dahil dalawa ang basic subjects ko
-dahil ang tagal ng sembreak
-dahil hindi ko alam kung gagraduate ba ako sa unibersidad na ito o magpapaalam lang ba pagktapos ng isang taon?
-dahil hindi ko na yata matutupad ang aking pangarap na maging DL at makasama sa JTA
Ang tanging pangarap ko na lamang ngayon ay gumradweyt sa Ateneo kahit na hindi ako maging cumlaude/magnacumlaude/summacumlaude. Sapat na sa akin ang simpleng diploma na iaabot sa akin sa taong 2011.
-dahil maraming freebies
-dahil ang mga atenista ay men and women for and with others
-dahil masarap kumain sa Manang's
-dahil may mga kaibigan akong gaya nila Grace, Anna, Aimee, Chrissie at marami pang iba
-dahil maganda ang campus
-dahil ang daming pwedeng kainan sa may Katipunan
-dahil maganda ang LRT station sa Katipunan
-dahil maraming cute at hotties sa blue school
-dahil cool si Dean Ang
-dahil ang daming walang pasok noong Agosto
-dahil kasali ako sa ACLC at mababait mga tao doon
Ngunit kahit masarap maging atenista, nahihirapan pa rin ako... at bakit kaya?
-dahil kahit anong aral ang gawin ko 1.86 lang ang aking QPI sa advisory mark
-dahil naka C lang ako sa Filipino at ES Lec at D naman sa ES Lab
-dahil bagsak ako sa PE practical exam
-dahil ang gastos tumira dito sa Katips
-dahil ang layo ko sa aming home sweet home
-dahil nasa Baguio ang aking kisses
-dahil hindi ko kasama ang aking Zzy
-dahil tumataba na ako
-dahil yung Easy A daw na natsci ay mahirap din pala
-dahil dalawa ang basic subjects ko
-dahil ang tagal ng sembreak
-dahil hindi ko alam kung gagraduate ba ako sa unibersidad na ito o magpapaalam lang ba pagktapos ng isang taon?
-dahil hindi ko na yata matutupad ang aking pangarap na maging DL at makasama sa JTA
Ang tanging pangarap ko na lamang ngayon ay gumradweyt sa Ateneo kahit na hindi ako maging cumlaude/magnacumlaude/summacumlaude. Sapat na sa akin ang simpleng diploma na iaabot sa akin sa taong 2011.
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
A Series Of Unfortunate Events
Yeah. Yeah. Blah Blah Blah.
A lot of bad things kept on happening to me at this moment of my life!!
KFC and I are not allowed to see each other anytime we want to because of the distance and also because some people do not allow us.
When I received my math long test result, I saw that I got a 75.5 but then I recount it and it turned out I only got a 65.5.
So that is a 10-point decrease in my score.
We have a project in English and uhm--better not tell it.
My favorite checkered shoes was super wet with the dirty canal water yesterday because of the heavy rain.
My umbrella got broken and my file folder, too!
My papa stopped calling me.
I still don't get along with some of my blockmates and I didn't even get the chance to talk to some of them.
I'm missing kaloi so much but I don't want to keep on texting him or whatever because I don't want to disturb him during his study time or class hours.
Hay, I will trade all my chocolates, an ateneo-lasalle game or whatever just to spend a whole day with him.
A day without thinking about rules, school or things like that.
I want freedom from all the chains of my life.
Things that stop me from doing things which makes me happy.
Really happy.
I value my education.
I'm grateful for all the blessings God gave me but...
...despite all those things, there are still some things missing.
You can never really have everything you want.
And for every thing you get, there is a price to pay.
Thank you to the people who are always there for me...
Elaine, Brent, Grace, Anna Moreno, Aimee, Chrissie and Zzy.
Saturday, August 4, 2007
A Letter
My Peter Parker/veggie pizza/heart<3,
I really want to see you eh pero some things/people just won't let us. I want to be with you before going back to Manila again tomorrow. I want to hug you before I leave or just whatever...see you or touch you. I hate myself. I can't hold back my tears. I was really happy kanina when I was with you. I'm going to miss you so much. I'll be back sa Manila na. I don't look forward to it unlike before na excited pa ako. I have to study hard para wala silang masabi. And ikaw rin ha? I know naman na we're both doing our best. I know wala na talaga tayo magagawa para magkita bukas pero I know na pagdating ko naman sa dorm andun si baby piggy na bigay mo. I just have to hug him at once because I know that baby piggy can comfort me. I love you, my KFC. Sorry nga pala wala pa tayong picture together. Next time na lang, alright? Ingat sa Baguio trip. We just have to see each other again. I love you. Argh! Tears kept on falling. I can't sleep. I love you so much. I'm sorry din if makulit ako sayo. I'm sorry din if I posted it here sa blogspot. I just don't know where to put it. I can't write naman a letter for you kasi hindi ko rin naman mabibigay. And this is super haba if itetext ko lang sayo. Let me know if nabasa mo na ito ha?
Again, I LOVE YOU ... <3
I really want to see you eh pero some things/people just won't let us. I want to be with you before going back to Manila again tomorrow. I want to hug you before I leave or just whatever...see you or touch you. I hate myself. I can't hold back my tears. I was really happy kanina when I was with you. I'm going to miss you so much. I'll be back sa Manila na. I don't look forward to it unlike before na excited pa ako. I have to study hard para wala silang masabi. And ikaw rin ha? I know naman na we're both doing our best. I know wala na talaga tayo magagawa para magkita bukas pero I know na pagdating ko naman sa dorm andun si baby piggy na bigay mo. I just have to hug him at once because I know that baby piggy can comfort me. I love you, my KFC. Sorry nga pala wala pa tayong picture together. Next time na lang, alright? Ingat sa Baguio trip. We just have to see each other again. I love you. Argh! Tears kept on falling. I can't sleep. I love you so much. I'm sorry din if makulit ako sayo. I'm sorry din if I posted it here sa blogspot. I just don't know where to put it. I can't write naman a letter for you kasi hindi ko rin naman mabibigay. And this is super haba if itetext ko lang sayo. Let me know if nabasa mo na ito ha?
Again, I LOVE YOU ... <3
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Go Ateneo!!!
Way to go, Ateneo!!
It was the first game of the Ateneo and La Salle held at the big dome!
Though I wasn't able to watch the game in Araneta, I am quite happy in the end.
It was a good game.
Most of the time, the score is tied.
The score is 80-77.
I watched the game on the big screen TV in the caf up.
I was with my blockmates and all the other Ateneans.
Everyone was cheering and yelling.
Yee!
I could feel the school spirit until now.
Everyone was so supportive.
Long and Tiu, in my opinion, is soo good at playing basketball.
I think I'm starting to fall "in-crush" kay Tiu. =P
Ooops. haha. Crush lang.
Oh well! Tiu has it all.
One description nga sa kanya is:
"Simply Tiu Good"
=D
yee!
He's a cute and rich student-athlete of the Ateneo.
He's popular, you probably know him.
Anyway, for the next blue eagle-green archer game, I will make sure na mapapanood ko na sa Araneta.
Go Ateneo! One BIG fight!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
"THE" Game
Honestly, I feel bad. So bad.
The Ateneo-La Salle game will be on Thursday and they started releasing tickets today.
I heard rumors before that some people camp near the ticket booth just to be the first in line.
I just laughed at it when I heard it and didn't believe.
Today, my roommate and I went to school at around 7 am but my first class starts at 9:30 am.
I saw that the rumor is true!
People actually slept near the door of the covered courts just to be the first in line the next morning!!!
And it actually paid off because they got a good seat for the eagle-archer game.
Hmp.
My roommate and I waited in line until 9:30 am.
I asked my blockmate Brent to wait in line for me and get a ticket but he soon left.
So in the end, I don't have a ticket for the much awaited game of the UAAP 70th Season.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Friday, July 20, 2007
I Chose To Be Blue...So Maybe That's The Reason Why I'm Sad
Today's the day I feel so alone.
I feel like everything is going wrong.
I have almost everything naman.
I'm studying in one of the best universities in the country, I have a supportive and caring family, I have good friends, and Karlo who means a lot to me just as I am to him.
Pero bakit parang nothing's going right.
Something is missing.
I'm not happy with my life.
Maybe I'm suffering from depression.
College is no joke.
College is hard.
If you don't work hard, you won't get anything.
If you work hard enough, you still won't get anything.
And if you work super hard, you only get a fraction of what you deserve.
Hardwork is really needed to survive in the Ateneo.
Ang hirap mag-adjust sa buhay college.
I'm doing my best to survive pero nahihirapan ako, gusto ko ng umiyak.
I feel so alone din.
I'm 5 hours away from home and 7 hours away from Karlo.
I miss my high school friends so much and my high school life, too!
I have high school friends din naman dito sa Manila pero hindi rin naman kami lagi nagkikita.
High school life is way too easy compared to my life right now.
I'm missing it.
If I survive a day in college, accomplishment na yun for me.
And now, I reminisce my old life and cry... trying to remember how much fun I had.
During high school, I can study and have fun at the same time.
Pero now, if you study...study lang. If fun naman, hindi mo masyado enjoy kasi iniisip mo pa rin yung mga schoolwork na dapat mong gawin.
I don't have a good foundation pa for my English and Math classes which makes it even harder for me.
In my old school, I'm one of the smart kids(modesty aside) pero now in my university, I'm one of the clueless students.
Minsan tuloy I wonder...bakit kaya ako pumasa ng Ateneo?
Parang it's impossible eh.
I'm sorry masyado ko yatang dinadown sarili ko.
Pero it's true eh.
Nahihirapan ako.
The transition from high school to college is never easy talaga.
Minsan naiisip ko, sana hindi na lang ako nag-ADMU para hindi mataas expectation nila sa akin.
Nakakahiyang maging drop out ng ateneo.
I will definitely disappoint the people around me if mangyari yun.
I'm studying hard naman eh.
It's just that parang kahit anong gawin ko kulang pa rin.
Dati, I want to graduate with latin honors sa ateneo.
Pero now, all I want is to graduate kahit walang makuhang honors dahil super nahihirapan ako.
Wala naman akong sinisisi sa nangyayari sa akin ngayon.
Maybe masayado lang ako naii-stress sa dami ng ginagawa at iniisip.
Sana sembreak na..
Nakaka-perfect rin naman ako ng quizzes, minsan one mistake. Pero may mga quizzes din ako na 2/5 at 4/10.
Those quizzes make me sad.
Anyway, makakabawi pa naman siguro ako.
I'll really do my best.
I don't want to switch universities.
I have to stay here.
I must stay here.
Though I know it's not going to be easy...God will take care of me.
stressed. depressed. tired.
will I survive?
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