Undecided

My cousin woke me up and told me my papa was on the phone and he wanted to talk to me.
I woke up, went downstairs, got the phone and talk to him.
He asked me a question and needs an answer at once.
He asked, "Ano? Gusto mo bang tumira sa condo? May binebenta yung nanay ng tito Jake mo, malapit rin lang sa Ateneo. Ano gusto mo ba? Kailangan mo ng magdecide ngayon dahil tatawag na si Mrs. Laigo sa akin."
Sigh.
I didn't know that was coming.
Since the day of my graduation until the moment I woke up this morning, I know and everybody else knows that I'm going to stay in a dorm.
I really don't know what to answer.
I can't decide.

Condo:
I'm alone. (sad)
May swimming pool! (yeah!)
Yung pera hindi nawala kasi napalitan lang ng condo.

Dorm:
Four in a room. (new friends)
Pero yung pera lumalabas. Bayad ka ng bayad, saan napupunta yung pera? Sa dorm lang.

I'm thinking kasi if sa dorm ako, hindi ako malulungkot.
Okay rin naman sa condo kasi you get to learn how to be independent.
Kaso I don't think kaya ko na.
Maybe next year?
And isa pa, yung money.
Money-wise get a condo.

Waaaaaaaaaah!
So I just told my papa, "Bahala ka na. Hindi ako makapagdecide. Ikaw naman gagastos."
And then he said, "Kasi kung sa condo ka, mag-isa mo lang talaga. Wala kang katulong or makakasama. Sinasabi mo nga malulungkot ka. Sige, mag-dorm ka na lang."

Ayun.
What do you think mga friends?
I can't decide.
waaaaaaah!
Let me know what's best for me...